When you cut yourself you never seem to feel the pain until you look down and see the blood slowly flowing out while you watch the color darken. I didn’t feel the pain of losing until the very next day when I didn’t get a good morning text from you like I had for two years. When I didn’t get to feel the warmth of your hugs after a long day. When I didn’t get to hear your voice one last time before I shut my eyes. The pain I felt when the whole world came crashing down on me, the day I lost my best friend. We met for a reason. You protected me. You took care of me. You didn’t die in vain. Your memory will live through all the hearts you’ve touched with your kindness and smile. You are my light. You light the way when I see nothing but darkness. You forever guid me. You are my guardian angel. My only wish for you was to be free and I know you are. I hear you when the wind blows. I feel you when the sun shines on me. I know you’re saying hello, when I look up to the sky and a star twinkles at me. I see you’re smile when I close my eyes. I know you’re never gone. I know you’re always in reach. The pain I feel never last for long because I know you wouldn’t want me to feel pain still even though I can’t help it. I know you want me to be strong so I try, I try to keep my head up. I know you give me the strength too when I can no longer do it myself. I love you forever. I adore you. I admire you. I miss you. I love you to the moon and back my sun. 💘 Fly high to the highest point of paradise my love.